Seems weird that at 37 years old i want to 'get started'. I guess because I'm so frustrated in my life with how its turned out so far, i'm just at a point i cant take it anymore. I was the girl in college that others would come to for inspiration and motivation. Honestly for the last 8-10 years i've not been ANY kind of inspiration to anyone including myself.
My dream: has ALWAYS been to be an actress. Not famously crazy like the ones you see on tv. I DO want to work with those actors but i dont want to be running from the paparazzi and such. I love what the arts do for people. Brings out happiness and inspiration. Makes you cry, makes you mad etc etc- so moving! Makes you laugh!! THIS is what i love doing for people, and this is the avenue i really want to do it in....i've said it for so long but have not moved on it.
I guess i let life's circumstances & not being where i wanted to be in life get to me. I'm at the heaviest and unhealthiest i've been in years and that has kept me from pursuing my dreams. So NOW, i'm at my breaking point in life. I've not explained all that has gone on in life because that part is private and isnt anything that will help you understand. I just want to say, its time for me to be the dreamer i have always been in life.
Time to be the one who has life in her! who motivates and inspires others. So starting with myself, monday i go back to work, i will absolutely start my exercise program again. I also signed up for acting classes with the Weist- Barron Agency in Atlantic City. It's time to put action to my dreams- Action behind my faith and keep it moving! This is not the best economy to start dreaming, but when is?
signing out till next time!
Mags
