Commercial Acting Class

Well i've started my classes and first of all i didnt know Atlantic City was soooo far away!!! wow it takes like an hour and a half every sunday ONE WAY to get there...but i prefer this than going to NYC every weekend. I'm having fun and learning to take direction...can't wait to get the whole thing under my belt, get pics done and get auditioning...

so how about i picked up on an opportunity to be on the Dr. Oz show!! The segment producers , i think that's who it is, has called me and wants to use me in the segment about longevity drinks! how cool is that! he loved my upbeat personality and thought i was fun! That is so fantastic!! i'll write more after the show and tell ya how it went...I hope to get on national tv!! exposure right now and you never know where it might lead YOU JUST NEVER KNOW!!!!!!

I'm sooo excited!!!!!!

ok gotta go because i have a concert in NYC tonight. Ya know i'm glad i've gotten over the fact that i'm a little overweight and have thick arms!! cause i'm wearin these cute jeans with a tank top and might i say look kinda cute today AND COMFORTABLE!!!

God's Will or Bad Economy & I'm clueless

Well, every single job i've put in for has told me i'm Eligible but not accepted...Every single thing that i know i can do and would be a really cool job...everything has been turned down. I've been living at home for 8 years now and am finally brave enough to put out for jobs, and the timing couldnt be any worse.

I prayed that God would not open any doors that i'm not supposed to walk through but as i get older and desire change in my life, it gets frustrating and a feeling of dismay when all doors seem to be shut.

I have to talk myself into thinking that its His will, and maybe the new adventure i'm about to go on will have a greater open door than the little ones i'm trying to open...

How long do i wait and believe that? do i just sit here living in one bedroom of my mothers house at 37 years old? is the economy so bad i should just sit and wait it out?

it's so hard because no one really seems to have the right answer...so rather than get depressed about it, i'm trying to enjoy every day of my life and all that it brings...even if it brings nothing but another breath of air...

Getting Started

Seems weird that at 37 years old i want to 'get started'. I guess because I'm so frustrated in my life with how its turned out so far, i'm just at a point i cant take it anymore. I was the girl in college that others would come to for inspiration and motivation. Honestly for the last 8-10 years i've not been ANY kind of inspiration to anyone including myself.

My dream: has ALWAYS been to be an actress. Not famously crazy like the ones you see on tv. I DO want to work with those actors but i dont want to be running from the paparazzi and such. I love what the arts do for people. Brings out happiness and inspiration. Makes you cry, makes you mad etc etc- so moving! Makes you laugh!! THIS is what i love doing for people, and this is the avenue i really want to do it in....i've said it for so long but have not moved on it.

I guess i let life's circumstances & not being where i wanted to be in life get to me. I'm at the heaviest and unhealthiest i've been in years and that has kept me from pursuing my dreams. So NOW, i'm at my breaking point in life. I've not explained all that has gone on in life because that part is private and isnt anything that will help you understand. I just want to say, its time for me to be the dreamer i have always been in life.

Time to be the one who has life in her! who motivates and inspires others. So starting with myself, monday i go back to work, i will absolutely start my exercise program again. I also signed up for acting classes with the Weist- Barron Agency in Atlantic City. It's time to put action to my dreams- Action behind my faith and keep it moving! This is not the best economy to start dreaming, but when is?

signing out till next time!

Mags